You win some, you loose some.

So the YANKEES won the first game of their series against the Boston Red Sox (10-7 baby!) That made me pretty happy, but then i checked the NBA scores to see the Bulls (yes, i am STILL a Bulls fan) got their butts kicked by the Celtics (104-74, how sad.) So i guess as the saying goes, you win some, you lose some. In other non-sport related news...

I've been very irritable these last few weeks. Which i'm sure some of you have noticed. I just feel like i'm being pulled in 30 different directions at once. I can't concentrate, i can't sleep, i CAN eat :) I don't know what it is really. Maybe i've stretched myself too thin this time. Maybe if i was just MORE organized, not such a procrastinator, maybe that would be of help.

Maybe it's because i've had two of the most amazing summers and i'm STILL here in Murray. Not that i hate murray, or the people here, but i'm ready for more. I keep getting these AMAZING tastes of bigger and better things and then i have to come back here. Maybe that's part of it. Maybe because for the first time in my years away at school i've become homesick. Maybe because i've been with Tom for nearly 2 and a half years and I never see him.

I think all this is finally getting to me. It's rough.
I dont' mean to be so snappy with all my friends and what not. I really want to be in a good mood and be happy and upbeat. But it just comes out, out of nowhere ALL THE TIME. I'm trying not to be irritated by the little things. I'm trying to brush them off, but i've realized you can only do that for so long and then all the small things become one HUGE thing, and i think that is worse. Maybe i should talk to the people i'm having problems with, instead of being snappy. Maybe it's because i'm not good with confrontation... NEVER have been. Maybe... I should actually be doing homework instead of over analyizing every aspect of my life... ok i'll do that.