Long & Stressful couple of weeks

So I know it has been a while since I've updated this, but it has been a very long couple of weeks. the week after homecoming was a stressful school week. Art projects, senior workshops to attend, trying to fit work into my schedule and all that jazz... but then it got worse. I made an unplanned trip home over fall break as Tom's grandmother had went into the hospital. This really hit me harder than I thought it would. The minute he told mehe was going home and why, my heart said "GO." I didn't know how exactly to approach it though, i didn't want to feel like i was unwelcome (not that his family would EVER make me feel that way), but i wasn't sure. It was really tough. I felt... realived, i guess, when he said he wanted me to come with him. I really wanted to just be there for him, and for his family. I loved his grandma, she was so sweet and funny. I only wish I could have gotten to know her better...
Unfortunately she passed away that weekend, but we got to see her and that was very important to him, and to me. For that entire weekend I just went into maternal mode.. I wanted to do any and everything I could to make him feel better. Even though I knew there wasn't much I could do. I just wanted to do what I could, for everyone. I really wished I could have stayed this week for the funeral, but missing 4 days of classes would have set me extremely far behind. And I want to thank Amy & Josh for getting me home on sunday, I truly couldn't ask for better friends. I love you both.
Tuesday I was at work and all I could think about was Tom and his family. And I got a sign. A sign that sort of let me know everything was ok, even though I wasn't there. And then I realized something. I have never been so happy with someone in my entire life. I know that Tom is the right person for me, and I feel so special to even know him. And his family, I love all of them, and I feel lucky to not only know them but to hopefully one day be able to call them family. :)
So that is why I haven't updated this thing.. but writing all of that makes me feel good, I think journal writing is a very theraputic thing. But now I should go work on this midterm I have due monday and the speaker eval i have due tuesday.