So many different plans...

I was just thinking about things the other day and when I started college I had a plan, heck I had plan before college. But every year my plan changes more and more. Am i still the same person I use to be? If our plan changes does that mean we've changed? Or are we just growing into ourselves and become who we are truly meant to be? (and maybe i've been watching too much sex & the city, b/c that sounded like a Carrie post.

This WAS my old plan: Go to Murray State (cuz lets face it, that never changed) and move to New York. Work in advertising (and that never changed.) And as many of my friends thought, get married have a kid, get divorced and end up a single mom; but a cool one at that. Then I added the option of grad school, first at some place in California and then at U of I to the list. Then eventually changed NY to Chicago.

But now that senior year is upon me and I am in a very steady relationship I have another plan:
Graduate in May, move back home, work in Chicago @ OMD (this is the one thing I REALLY want). Live at home until I pay off my car by December. Then in January Tom will be back home and graduated (which will be so great). I would love to have the both of us move in Chicago together, but this is where I'm not sure what is going to happen. It all depends on what he finds job wise.. and more importantly if he even wants to live with me at that point. And being that he's not as much of a city guy as i thought he was, that poses even more... could i handle not being IN the city? That I scared the most of, b/c that is what i've always wanted. That's something I've never changed my mind on. And I know that's a bridge we'll cross when we get to it. But I am very much of a planner, i like to know what is going to happen and when. Last minute decisions aren't my thing... heck making any type of decisions isn't my thing.

So far now as my first semester as a college seniors rapidly flies by I sit and wonder about all of this (when i actually have a moment to myself to think.)